It’s the 19th! You know what that means; celebratory day with Rubes. How funny, I told myself I would never conform to the whole monthniversary thing but look what I’m doing ugh. Makes me sick. How would you define a monthniversary though? Is it the present giving? The doing special things or is it just about spending time with you significant other? In our case, the deal is that we always spend that one day together, doesnt matter if it’s just lying in bed watching Penn and Teller or going to the park. Does that count as making it a big deal? I dont even know. I dont think it is, all I know is that I am very thankful and in love with this person :)
My plant craze has heightened. Ruben made me a planter box today! I’ve wanted one for ages and he finally has. So happy about it. I am such a fussy puss though. The sides of the planter box was too high and looked crap and I crack the shits because it was like that. I am horrible :( but on a side note, my plants are growing! holy cow they are growing! I AM doing something right I think. Hopefully they will grow by spring. Make the apartment look nicer.
I have also done a very stupid thing today, I bought Raspberry Ketones. They can’t be that bad can they? I mean if Dr. Oz recommends them then they should be fine. I am sick of going to the gym and getting sore and not seeing results. Time to speed up the process; I hope it does anyway. If not I will learn from this and never buy into that shit ever again.
Total amount spent: $99.80 (Raspberry Ketone) + $3 Pho dinner.
hung out with Cam & Alex tonight. They are super! I love these two so much. They make me feel so comfortable around them. And they have been together for 7 years now. #holyshityouguysareawesome
Am not liking the selfie with Rubes. I can see where the fat is slowly creeping up to now. Blragh.
Total amount spent today: $20
SO. it’s been forever since the last post, but I assure you it’s going to get better. It’s an attempt of self persistence and documentation that I must refuse to give up. Simple things like working out, spending money, relationship nooks & your average daily rambles must go on here to get lost in the wonderful world of the world wide web. This is in hopes that one day when I look back at this I will cringe crimson.
Got asked to go on a hike with my lovely housemate Kasia with her oh so wonderful friends. Twas her birthday and I honestly made a very large attempt to make it special. There was cake, dinner, presents.. everything; made me sniffle a little when she said “It is the best birthday she ever had”. So on this hike, we went, saw and conquered the 1000 Steps at the Kokoda Track Memorial. It was bittersweet. We (I shamelessly speak for all three girls today) made a very good attempt to get a little cardio into the day. My attempt was rather pathetic, this being from the fact that I went a quarter of the way and felt like I was going to faint. Way to go fitness level.
Had a blast with the cutest couple I had ever met. Yes I did find myself wondering “Why aren’t me and Ruby like this?” a few times, but everybody is different and I suppose every couple works differently. I love you Rubes. They wandered off infront of me and Kasia with such a carefree spirit that was disgustingly admirable, the best part was that they did not make us feel even the slightest bit awkward. That my friends, is how you can tell a good relationship from an average one. Couples that can still be couples and not make people around them awkward should be given an award. Props to them.
Being all pumped and feeling like I’ve accomplished something great today, I actually attended body pump class for the first time in months. How pathetic. I made it through, but I anticipate the pain to come tomorrow morning/afternoon. So now the heaviest I can lift is 10 kilos. In two weeks time I hope it ups to 15 kilos. I say hope because I do not trust myself with going back to the gym. I shall attempt to go to CXWorx tomorrow. ATTEMPT.
I now also have to watch my money very wisely as I am so fucking broke, it’s not even funny. I feel the need to now save the scrapes from my food in order to get through the next six months before I can start looking for a full time job. Am getting sick of this constant studying, I want to earn some moolah.
Total amount spent today: $91.20 + a million dollars
1. $57.50 for internet bill
2. $33.70 for money I owe Stacie for Krystal’s birthday
3. $32357632875 for final semester fees
oh man am I broke or what.
SO my new year has been pretty good so far I think. Have lived up to all my resolutions of catching up with people, being myself and getting healthy! So far so good I think. Managed to catch a few rounds of conversation with one of my best friends in the world, Ms. Sue Depp. We reminiscenced about junior high and high school and wondered what happened to everyone one of us? We seemed to stroll down memory lane for quite some time before we even got our coffees. I dont think neither of us minded that the service pretty much sucked because it was a nice place we were at, plus not when you haven’t seen each other in a year, it’s easy to be oblivious to your surroundings. Being girls, we obviously opened up the relationship box; let’s just say that I think we are both in places where we want out relationships to be and have come to the conclusion that we are very different people. One thing she said did stick to me though, “The rest of your life is a long time, make sure you live your life before anyone else’s”, wise words my friend.
Also managed to catch up with some friends from archi school which I’ve missed. Can’t say much has changed with them really. Everyone is still doing architecture, either working or studying with the same vision for their future. I do hope everyone makes it to where they want to go.
On another note, I have managed to keep my workout routine going for four days now. Ruben will be so proud, “Finally, doing something about it after all that whining”. I am sorry but I am a prissy little girl who is now finally stepping it up, and she’s got her game face on.
RUBEN COUNTDOWN: 10 SLEEPS!
MOOD: The excitement is building up.
So obviously we all wonder ‘what WAS my resolutions for this year?’ some of us remember it by heart, almost like a mantra, but some of us (ahem) write resolutions for the sake of writing them. Yes, guilty as charged, I fall under the second category.
I scavenged my trusty xanga blog (which i have had for seven years now), only to find that I’ve only written in it about six times all of last year! WHAT was I doing all year?
The void was filled. That long empty void of being loved and to love in return, to feel safe within that soul’s presence. In short, (oh the irony) Ruben danced into my life, and that void that I used to distract myself with blogging, baking, clubbing (guilty) was instantly filled up. I do admit that filling up that void wasn’t easy at first, I had to balance assignments from uni, work and also my friends. Trust me, when you have all these things pouring into your life all at once, you will feel it.
I must admit, I have neglected certain areas of my life (my friends mainly) in order to sustain that first few ‘unsure’ months in my relationship. What could I do? I was (and am still) head over heals about this redhead. Which leads me to my first resolution: patch up my relationships. It was after speaking to a good friend that made me realize that I was a shit friend to a few individuals. “None of us adapted as well as you did, and no one will ever." was the slap in the face. He was right, we started off as family, doing things together, growing and discovering together. It was very selfish of me to just run off into my own little world and neglect them. I am sure they are happy for me, but now it’s time to right the wrong and hope they will be happy WITH me.
In 2012, I have met many new people (mostly Ruben’s friends and from my masters) and have gotten close to a handful of them. The expression ‘But it’s Liz, that’s why’ seems to roll off people’s tongues ever so often. Even though it may not seem so on the outside, it is very hard for me to meet new people. I must admit, I always let my self confidence get the better of me. It is hard for me to maintain a conversation with someone when I take one look at a person and tell myself ‘this person will not like me and i will look like an awkward turtle standing next to them’. It is not easy being introduced to Ruben’s friend when I know 95% of them time, I have not much in common with them. That automatically makes me take a back step even before the conversation even starts. The fact that I care way too much about what other people think of me does also cloud my better judgments. With that said, the next resolution for myself is to not care so much about fitting in and just be myself. I know how corny that sounds, but it’s a lot easier said than done.
Another personal thing I would like to add on to the list is to get fit in 2013. I think I have pass the phase of wanting to look good to get people to like me. Ever since I’ve been with Ruben he has made me feel like a million bucks, even on my ‘juff days’. I suppose that is real love isn’t it? When you can feel like a Victoria Secret model even though you look like a fat furball a cat spat up, but that is besides the point. After going to a gym class with a friend, I realized I am terribly unfit. After the short 45 minute class, I was huffing and puffing like the big bad wolf trying ever so desperately to eat the last little piggy. I thought to myself ‘Oh God, I think even a five year old is more fit than me’, how am I suppose to keep up with them? Being an early childhood educator requires you to be in top condition, to literally catch up with the children. I imagined myself playing catch with my kindergarten class and pictured myself failing, with little four year olds sticking out their tongues at me. NO, I will NOT allow that to happen. Starting from the first of January, I am eating healthy, and getting fit!
I suppose the thing about resolutions is making a list of what you want to accomplish in the new year. I used to have a list of 20 things to do. Now looking back, I never accomplished even a quarter of the list, so three things are more than enough for me.
Enough about me, what are your resolutions for 2013?